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Monday, April 30, 2018 - 4:05 PM
10 Years Ago, I joined GEnRe's Welcome tea.
It was the start of my guitar journey with them. Want to have the habit of updating either here or Dayre, but I'm just too lazy. Updating here will be easier to view using desktop/laptop. If update Dayre, it will be easier to vies it from phone, and easier to upload photos as well. I would like to start the habit again, so if I'm really going for my working holiday, I will continue to update my working holiday experience.
Monday, 15.02pm
Wednesday, May 17, 2017 - 2:31 PM
Some times I'm quite thankful that I used to keep a blog back in secondary school days.
Although my language was very bad (even until now), but at least there is something for me to look back at. But I can't quite remember when was my first post or first blog. I had 3 blogs until my name. 2 are my own personal, while 1 belongs to GEnRe. I Guess now nobody know about this blog. Even the one who created the blog might also forgotten about it long ago. Next week is exam week for me. Most people start this week, but I didn't have any module on first term so my exams only start next weeek. This semester I have been so slack. I haven't really start studying.
Wednesday, 1431
Thursday, April 27, 2017 - 4:26 PM
Chen Ning from Yes 933 mentioned about "Blog" on her 心情小抽屉.
And it make be suddenly want to check my blog again. And as usually, it has been more than a year since the last update. The last post I mentioned I joined back GEnRe for GI III. As their initial Gen Vaganza IX date falls on the date on my niece (Ah Girl)'s wedding date. So when I started school in July, I somehow stopped going back GEnRe. After that I decided to play for this year's GI. I went back on Nov after exam, and initially was ok, although I was still lacking quite behind. However, after I came back from my 10 days 9 nights Taiwan trip in Jan and together with CNY and other events, I was very behind the progress. I started feeling very depressed at around start of Feb. I started to not join them (Alex, Joel and the rest) for supper. Can't remember when was the very first night that I decided not to join them, but I know it was around before V. Day. Initially I only wanted to slowly walk to Causeway Point, and they might be able to catch up with me while walking, as I know that when I'm leaving TRCC they were already packing and keeping their guitars. And I was walking super slowly. I took about 30 mis? to walk from TRCC to Woodlands MRT. They eventually did not manage to catch up with me, and I left first. Since then, I stopped going supper. I became very anti-social. I don't even feel like talking to Alex and Joel. I started avoid them, example I know Joel might want to talk to me, I will try to walk away or look busy. I will avoid any eye contact with them. I think they did realise my changes, but I think they know me, and didn't want to give my pressure, so they didn't really talk to me about this. In between, there was once Joel message to ask if I'm ok, whereas Alex sent me a motivation quote. (Both on the same night). After this, I will try to wait and walked to the station together, or at least dropped them a text if I'm going off first. Well, I did try to be "normal". I just don't want to interact with anyone from GEnRe. *Something to confess* There was once where Joel asked if want to have dinner together in the group chat. I took awhile to reply that I'm free. However, after I replied (or the next day), I regretted that I replied I can make it. Eventually no one else could make it (only him and me), I was quite relief. Excuse for me to say no. Though he is still ok about meeting up even though only both of us. But I'm not ok. So in the end I did not meet him. (Till now, I haven't tell him about this. Maybe next meet up, I will try to tell him). Reason for not going was because I don't know how to interact with him. I was anti-social to that extend. *end* I only joined them for supper the last practice before concert. Part of the reason was I was talking to Joel and Daryl while walking there, so I decided to join them. However, after awhile I regretted a bit for joining them, but I did stay throughout. I'm super thankful to have them as my friends. And I'm very sure if I need their help, they will be there for me. But I'm the one who is closing myself from them. Up till after the concert, I was a little better. When we went ilight, I was still holding back a bit. But I think I'm very back to normal now. Just that maybe I might not jump into wanting to join the ensemble that easy.
Thursday, 1626.
Tuesday, February 02, 2016 - 12:00 AM
Randomly clicked the "home" button of my browser and it led me to my "very long never update" blog.
Looking at the date, its been more than a year since I update. I'm just so lazy to login and write a "dairy". I used to be so long winder in my blog that I literally write out everything that happened on that day in this blog of my. Thinking back, I was so me even until now. I tired to "blog" on Dayre, however it was so unsuccessful as of now. First few days and when I was in H.K. for my solo trip I did post everyday. However, after that I will be lazy to update again. Anyway, I posted in my previous entry that I was quite determine to not go back GEnRe. In the end, I still went back. But hey, at least my determination lasted me about 1.5 yrs before I couldn't take it anymore and give in. Part of the reason also because I do miss the ensemble feel although currently I only know 30% of the whole ensemble? I don't even know few of my section mate. Another thing, I was being asked to play another section (Alto 2) instead of my usual section (Alto 1). Was a little sad however I should be happy as this means that I was being given the trust that I will be able to play a different section even though I have not touch guitar for more than 1.5yrs. (= However, due to other commitment, I can't really make it for all the practices. I even try to go for Saturday practice but just that start of the year is usually busy or still in "holiday" mood. Especially I traveled in both December and January. Looking at my February schedule, almost more than half the month I will be having classes. That's a lot, plus February is usually a shorter month out of the 12 months. So much to blog about what happened since the last time i blog. Even thought the interval between my last few entry was also quite a few month. Hopefully I will not be lazy again, and login to this space again to post more about my current self and my thoughts for many things. Till then, good night! (=
Tuesday, 0026.
Sunday, October 19, 2014 - 7:04 PM
Just some random thoughts since I login to Blogger.
Had been having blocked ear (left) for the last few days (since Monday). Visited the doctor but like not much improvement, but at least I know it is not something very serious. Exam in a few weeks time but I have yet to start studying, which is so me. Haven't been going back RP since the last concert on July. Was quite determine about not preforming, at least for now. Since yesterday, had been thinking if I should take the initiative to start a conversation, up till now nothing has been done. I'm just wondering between friends and partner, you can only choose one? You can't have both? You "shared" everything with me, and who do you expect me to share with? myself? I don't mind going crazy if everything will be ok again. That's all, can't think of anything more to write here as everything seems so "small"
Sunday, 1907.
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